A Required Pause

You didn’t even know. You weren’t quite aware. Aware that there was a silence screaming at you to listen to it. That there was a pillow you needed to cry into until your cries became a lullaby that lulled you into the best sleep you might have ever had. Or maybe you didn’t see that your eyes yearned for laying their sight on the “normalities” of life and not the over analyzed, algorithmic way of life that we endlessly scroll through via various social media platforms.

6 weeks ago, I found myself staring at the delete button to end this very site. I swore up and down that it no longer served me. That what it began as is all it will ever be. Pushing away the possibilities into which it could grow. And now here I am..staring in awe at the beauty it’s provided. The knowledge it made me acquire. Grateful for the creatives its allowed me to come to know.

Being in this moment, I realize my level of gratefulness would be amiss if I hadn’t given in to the pause. You’re still reading this because you know exactly what it is that I am speaking of.

It’s the pulling to and fro that you feel regarding the very project that is pushing for a better you. Sometimes it’s a series of ugly cries. Other times it is giving into bounds of naps. Maybe it looks like days off from the gym.

Whatever it is, give yourself that. But please. Always come back.